So, one thing I mentioned quite a few times at the beginning of the year when everyone was talking about goals and resolutions - it was kind of my main goal for the year - was not stressing myself out. I hadn't realized it much before, but I have a tendency to put a lot of unneeded stress and pressure on myself. Basically, it's self-inflicted.
Now, this topic has a little to do with blogging but mostly just real life stuff. Basically, I just wanted to talk about stress in general and once more assess the ways I'm trying to eliminate it. I was actually doing really good about it until recently, I'd cut down on blog posts, from 5 to 7 a week to 3 to 5, I was balancing my reading and my writing and my blogging and it was fabulous.
I'm not sure what's changed but I lost that balance and now everything is just mounting up and overly stressful again. I think part of it has to do with goals I set myself in my writing, I try to set reasonable goals that won't cause stress and I think I'm overdoing it this month. The thing is, I'm not in school and I don't have a job, writing is my job and I treat it like it is, I work on my books for 6 to 8 hours a day, sometimes more, and it can be exhausting. Beyond that I don't have a ton of responsibilities but I still have to find time to do everything else. And writing, in general, can be stressing because beyond writing and rewriting and editing and doing the absolute best you can, you don't have much control over things. You can do your absolute best but when it comes to querying to try and get an agent, you basically have no say over anything. This causes even more stress!
I love writing, of course, and I don't hate or regret how much time I have to spend on it, I set these goals for myself, but when I'm so overly focused and don't have time to do other things it makes me stressed.
When I get stressed, I get so wound up that I don't want to read. It's kind of a downhill slope that can lead to lots of self-doubt and then it's into depression territory. So then I fall behind in reading which stresses me out if only because reading is the thing that makes me relax and when I take that away I don't have that relaxing part of the day.
Now, blogging. When I get stressed I tend to get so focused on one thing, writing usually, and it's all I can think of and focus on, so even though I still love making posts and it's so much fun, I fall behind. And it's not just posts but what I hate even more is falling behind on comments and visiting other blogs because without that blogging's not as fun.
So, how am I going to de-stress my life again? No idea. Well, yes an idea but not a great one and one that won't really take effect until after the 18th. After the 18th, I'll have finished what I'm currently working on and have time to take a short break before Camp NaNoWriMo in April. Reading is harder, because it doesn't stress me I'm just having a hard time finding time for it recently. As for blogging, I've already cut out my Sunday Weekly wrap-up posts and I'm just trying to do posts when I can and not worry about it, I'm really counting on being able to chill out and focus again on other things after the 18th. With blogging, it's like when I fall behind on comments then I start stressing out and I don't want to do more posts and I don't want to visit other blogs until I've caught up, so I kind of have to get over that.
I'm also trying out a new sleeping schedule to capitalize on my most productive hours of the day( I kind of get obsessed sometimes...). I'm used to staying up til 2 or 3 in the morning and then sleeping til 10. I usually eat and then start working which always leads to me feeling like I need crash again around 4, I just work through the slump I get there, but I tend to do less for a few hours around there. Now, I'm sleeping 1 to 7(more often 2 to 8) in the morning and then 4 to 7 in the afternoon, eliminating my least productive parts of the day and ensuring that I am more awake during my most productive parts.
So, I know this wasn't exactly a normal discussion post but if you're stressed or have any other icky type feelings(whether about blogging or not) share them below(it's almost like free therapy!). =)